This memoir is about the bond between a mother and her adopted son and the son’s struggle to free himself from the demons that led him to addiction. It is about a mother who would not give up; who nurses her son through mental illness and ultimately through drug addiction. It is about the grief that envelops her after losing the battle to save her son. It is about moving on and trying to make sense of her son’s struggle - and his untimely death. It is about a mother’s determination to find a way to use her son’s struggle to help others.